Back around the year 1998 I had a bad feeling I was in for a rough road…..

……. my son Jeremy was only around 5 years old and my daughter Jessica was turning 8.  I was the Preschool Director of Los Gatos Academy. The preschool was a non-denominational  school, but the upper school where my kids attended was a Scientology school.


I remember clearly this one alarming afternoon, I saw a parent crying and I asked what was wrong.

She replied, “my daughter is leaving soon for the Sea Org”  which is the elite branch of Scientology where members are required to sign a billion year contract to dedicate their lives to work for Scientology.

I Mentioned to her  “if you don’t want her to go, why don’t you just say no?”

She said “I can’t do that!”

I was confused……I said “WHY?”

She replied  “I can’t talk about it!”

I knew at that moment that I needed to be very concerned with my own children when they reached their teenage years.  I didn’t know at that time that if your a Scientology parent and you disagree with Scientology recruiting your kids for staff or the Sea Org that it’s almost impossible to fight it.  This is why this parent told me that she couldn’t talk about it.  I found out this first hand when I had to go through the recruiting of my own children.  I will go into this in more detail In a later post.

That same evening, I discussed with my 1st husband, Jessica and Jeremy’s father,  what had happened with this parent and her daughter.  After I told him what had occurred , I listened to what he had to say.  He told me that he didn’t see anything wrong with children joining the Sea Org.  He thought it was a good thing.

Then he shared with me that his ex wife’s son, Chris Leake joined the Sea Org when he was only around 12 years old.  He continued on to tell me that Chris went over the rainbow, which is a secret place in Scientology and even his own mother didn’t know where her son was.

I told my husband that I thought that was absolutely crazy, that I would never allow our children to do that. I felt bad for Chris’s Mom.  Little did I know….. my husband was not on the same page as me.  I was shocked by his reaction and couldn’t think with losing our children to the Scientology Sea Org.

He then told me that his stepson, Chris married Rhoanne who is L. Ron Hubbards Greandaughter.  Shortly after this time, we met Rhoanne and Chris, but had to keep it on the down low.  My ex was acting very secretive about the whole meeting.

A few months later, I observed these Sea Org recruiters wearing their naval uniforms showing up on the campus.   They were actually recruiting the young high school children to drop out of school and join the Sea Org.

I really started worrying and thought to myself “I have to prevent this from happening with my own children when they reach highschool  age”.

I guess my worry and concern for my children was well justified and at that time I had no idea of the nightmare that was ahead of us.  😔




My Jessica is engaged…..

…. and I’m truly happy for you.   Congratulations to you and Jonathan!  ❤️❤️

I found out last week that you were Engaged.  When I had first heard the news, my heart dropped with the thought of not being able to share with you in this special time of your life and I felt very sad.  Scientology has ripped apart our family for the past 5 years because of their enforced disconnection policy and now we can’t even be together during this memorable time.  I cried for days thinking about how you and I are missing out on all the exciting mother-daughter things we could be doing together such as planning a fabulous engagement party, picking out your beautiful dress, the wedding invitations just to name a few.  I will miss this time with you, Jessica…. I really will!


Instead of staying sad, I’m grateful that you have found someone you love and want to spend your life with.  I met Jonathan last year when I attempted to see you on Mother’s Day.  He was very kind to me even though we’re all going through an extremely difficult situation.  I thought he was quite handsome too.  I wish you and Jonathan the very best and many years of happiness together.  I think you and Jonathan make a wonderful couple.

I’m sending my love to you both and remember I’m always here for you.

Loving you always!

Love, Mom